Amidst all of this craziness, I'm reading "North and South" by Elizabeth Cleghorn Gaskell, and loving it. One line, in particular keeps coming back to me... "Looking back upon the year's accumulated heap of troubles, Margaret wondered how they had been borne. If she could have anticipated them, how she would have shrunk away and hid herself from the coming time! And yet, day by day had, of itself, and by itself, been very endurable - small, keen, bright little spots of positive enjoyment having come sparkling in the very middle of sorrows."
This is so true to life in general. I doubt many of us would happily agree to take on our challenges, and once we get through them we may wonder, "How?" But little bits of happiness sprinkled throughout every day, are exactly what get us through.
Even when they are sick, these kids of mine provide "keen, bright little spots of positive enjoyment".
Exhausted, Jordan passed out on the floor. He sweetness overwhelms me.
This guy has thrown up in his bed, on the couch, on the carpet, on a rug, and on the garage floor. Pretty much everywhere except the toilet. For such a little thing, he can make some big messes and I am sick to death of cleaning them up. But his smile makes up for all of it. Oh how I love him!
Now to be really honest. I have to admit there are moments when I think, "What are we doing, adopting Hallie? We already have so much on our plate and life would be so much easier if we didn't add her medical issues, possible emotional issues, and the financial burden of another adoption to everything we're already dealing with." But I know that even if I am tempted to "hide myself from the coming troubles" that the joy she'll bring into our home will get us through. And I am excited to meet her, get to know her, and to love her.